Embryonic

Lying on my side
Knees drawn to chest
And arms curled around my knees
The soft thick blue padding
On which I lay warms
And yet cools my naked skin

Through my lithium fueled eyes
And Thorazine slowed brain
I notice ever so slowly that
I am surrounded with
And floating on and in blue softness
Everything I see is water like blue

As blue as stilled pond water
Water so heavy that I float listlessly
On its surface yet feel also like I am sinking
Sinking and floating so effortlessly
This injection that sent me back to the womb
Where my mind begins to format itself

A sudden sharp pain opens my eyes
And my mind to this cocoon like environment
The warmth starts to leave my being
My body trembles and begins to shake
My limbs begin to unfurl themselves
But not quite all the way

As the rush of the new drug causes me
To rewrap myself in my own warm embrace
The trembling and shaking cease
Warmth returns to fuel my mind and body
And the cycle starts over again for I am
Stuck forever in this fetal pose