trapped...

trapped in this bubble of thought
nothing can reach me here
no one can find me here

wrapped up tightly in these blankets
nothing can touch me here
no one can touch me here

it is a world of my own creation
one which is accessible only to me
i control who can come and go

i lay shivering with anxiety
not knowing what i should do next
but realizing that nothing is the only option

i want to scream out for help
but there is no one that will hear my pleas
for i have built formidable walls

there is not anything that anyone could do
to dismantle this prison of my minds creation
for the only escape can come from within

the loss of my sanity is no longer a surprise
for i bowed down to that demon long ago
for i realized that normal i would never be

these illnesses have stripped me of everything
there is no longer anyone that ever cared left
i have been abandoned at sea and i am drowning

for just a moment i would like to try being normal
just for a week or maybe just for a day
but i know that that is not a possibility

i will never know what others know
things such as love and caring
are now far out of reach

i have succumbed to the control of my mind
deadly and diseased it is always frightening
and it makes this solitude a living hell

trapped in this bubble of thought
nothing can reach me here
no one can find me here

wrapped up tightly in these blankets
nothing can touch me here
no one can touch me here